So yesterday was a blah day... it started off with a peaceful morning, quick wrapping up of work, a strange situation, a phone call and a mood that lasted me the WHOLE day and more! It was awful...
I had a day full of shit thoughts and I just couldn't get myself to go away from them! I might have been pmssing too as everything would lead to my stupid tears rolling out. Whether I felt anything inside didn't matter... It was like the tear factory was in full swing ahead mode! LOL... So my cycling trip was kinda the same...
Aiyaps was kind enough to pick up quickly on the fact that something was wrong. Bad day at work??? He tried to distract me and snap me outta the mood! :) Bless him, waiting for the damn elevators, which took forever by the way, the man didn't know what hit him when I started to tear while randomly talking about not being affected! LOL! Throughout the ride, he gave me the space to just spin out my mood, distracted me with his day agenda... PS: you didn't finish telling me about the ppt you had to close! ;) and we made our way to our older routes which was fun! Less water and traffic helped. The STUPID drivers didn't however! I am sure I cursed soo many people on the way, and normally Aiyaps would be kind enough to laugh it off or see what happened... This time he just heard me belt out the cusses! lol!
All I really could think about is... Me wanting to JUST DISAPPEAR! I even voiced that to Aiyaps while riding through the inner lanes of gurgaon, but before saying anything else... there came the water fountain again, so decided to shut my trap and head home!
We had a good one hour of peddling, no stops for water or nothing! I have been meaning to have bhutta for soo many days now, every time we cross a bhutta waala the smell kills me :) in a good way of course! RAkshit was a darling and asked me like twice if I wanted to stop, but obviously, I was in no mood. I just wanted to head home and have a long shower...! There were tears rolling down my cheeks which I just couldn't stop. At least under the water they would disappear... even if for a while...!
Anyway, blah day... kind of a blah ride for me! Sorry for being a sour grape yesterday Aiyaps! Will try not to be so very often! The only good thing is that peddling is becoming a little addictive... helps me get things out of my system, one way or another! :) A new form of meditation for me possibly? :)
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